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That Which I Love Destroys Me


That Which I Love Destroys Me is a unique and powerful film by director Ric Roman Waugh. TWILDM is an uncensored look at the current epidemic of PTSD and severe mental trauma that create tremendous challenges for returning service members. A five-year labor of love, TWILDM followed two Special Operations Soldiers as they returned home after fighting in the longest combat campaign in American history only to face a new battle; the effects and stigma of PTSD and reintegration as a whole. But more importantly, the documentary addresses how they’re overcoming these issues.


  • Behind The Lens Online
    The “Must See” film of the year

    The single most important and powerful documentary of the year for all Americans is Ric Roman Waugh’s THAT WHICH I LOVE DESTROYS ME. If you see only one documentary all year, make it this one. Delivering a powerful, honest, eye-opening, and extremely humbling documentary on our returning veterans and the battlefield at home on which they fight the unseen enemies of PTSD and reintegration to societal norms, TWILDM hits home on all fronts.
    Debbie Lynn Elias
  • Business Wire
    The documentary offers a candid look at the current epidemic of PTSD through the eyes of two Special Operations veterans – Tyler Grey and Jayson Floyd – and its effects on their daily lives, impact on their family and friends, and how they are facing and overcoming the unseen scars of war.

Festival Participation

  • Austin Film Festival - 2014
  • Plaza Classica Film Festival, El Paso, Texas - 2015

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